This morning, July 15, 2014 between 9 and 10:15 I was caught off guard by a contact between mystery and personal group interaction.
Some background. Last evening I read words by Teilhard de Chardin in "The Making of a Mind" dated 29 March 1917. a On page 190 "...for the rest of my life, my task is to develop in myself...humbly, faithfully, doggedly...the mysticism that seeks passionately for God in the heart of every substance and every action..."
At the morning meeting of 10 mature males late in the conversation I decided to say words to this effect: "I have decided to develop in myself a passionate effort to look for God, the Creator, the Mystery in every substance, action and person of my experience" The conversation went on and then Roger said "I was waiting for you to speak up on a philosophy or subject that would challenge us to think." Others had been attentive and were listening with ears and eyes.
Some call this spiritual witness. I think of it as being utterly candid about a personal matter of highest and grandest importance - my own basis for a sense of meaning and purpose in my 86 year of life.
The effect on me was a form of devastation. It was as if all the energy of my psyche was poured out to others to use as they wished. I became so tired that I had return home to enter a time of solitude. There continues to be fall out in me. Little wonder that primitive humans handled matters of mystery with great caution. Now for me the challenge is to just let it be and enter the here and now continuing experiment. So frightening. So sacred. So possible.
Delton
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